"Can I just go grocery shopping real quick, without the kids?" I asked him mid-morning on Sunday.
And then I collapsed on the kitchen chair in tears.
Everything just feels like a set-back these days. Even a one-hour trip to the grocery store.
We had originally said June. Then it was July. Now we are desperately hoping for September. But honestly, I look at the calendar, look at our weekends over the course of the next month, and I wonder if that is even possible. There is still so much work to do at the house before we can move in. It's so far along and yet, there is just so much left.
We had plans to be away this past weekend but we canceled them. We'll likely be canceling more as the weekends go on. I hate having to do it, but there really just is no other way, he has to be out there on evenings and weekends or this will never get done.
Then I look around here. The boxes that still need sorting and organizing. The birth announcements and thank yous that need to get in the mail. The inventorying that needs to be done. And I just....well, I cry. Because I don't know what else to do, it's enough just trying to keep up with life these days. Cooking, cleaning, raising children. I don't even know where to fit the rest in.
We have friends coming up this weekend to watch the kids while Collin works and I sort and organize and shop (Oh yes! There is all this shopping that needs to be done yet too!) and bust out some thank yous. I can not tell you how grateful I am for them and how much I am looking forward to this weekend, to check some things off the to-do list. To feel like something is getting accomplished. Because on my own, here with three kids, it feels impossible. And so I cry.
But enough about that....let's talk about the zoo.
On Saturday we dropped Collin off to work and then the boys and I met my friend, Amanda, and her kiddos at Animal Haven Zoo in Weyauwega.
While I've heard about this from others, it was our first visit. I like that the sign says "Farm-Zoo" because that's exactly what I'd call it. The first have is more barnyard type animals while the second half is more of your typical zoo animals (lions, tigers, bears).
When I asked the boys to tell me their favorite part, they both said it was feeding the goats. I love goats. I want a goat. Collin once said if I brought a goat home in my old car (Mitsubishi Eclipse) I could keep it. I am still regretting not surprising him with a goat out my window.
I've added a sheep to the list of farm animals I want.
Chickens. A goat. And sheep.
When I asked their least favorite part of the day, the consensus was: the stinky pigs!
It was hot out on Saturday, but I'm so glad we got out of the house, visited with friends, and saw some animals. It was just what we all needed to release a little energy and anxiety.
Many thanks to Amanda for taking all these pictures!