For the past two or three days I have been extremely irritable and easily agitated. I wish I could chalk it up to PMS, but Hello! that just got over!! I can’t exactly pin point what is stressing me out, but I think it might have something to do with the month of January coming to an end.
This sounds incredibly stupid even to me as I type it, but January has been a very relaxing month for us. We have been home for the past four weekends in a row with no major plans and I’m not kidding when I say this may be the first month in over four years that this has happened. In a typical month if we are home even one weekend without plans we’re doing pretty good. But this has been 4 blissful weekends in a row.
So I’m sure you’re thinking, what exactly is the problem then? The problem is I haven’t taken advantage of this time off at all. And now our free weekends are coming to an end and I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished anything in the past month. Here is just a short list of things that have not been done:
1) Clean den – this room looks like some sort of natural disaster site, but instead of getting in there and picking things up I shut the door and try to forget the room exists. I plan on painting it the last weekend in Feb. but if it doesn’t get cleaned there is no way in hell I’ll be able to paint.
2) Make the remainder of our Christmas gifts and get them in the mail – Christmas was over a month ago now and I still haven’t gotten everyone their gifts. I’ve been using the excuse that they might not ship well, but that doesn’t quite work for the friends that are here in town and we’ve seen at least 4 times since Christmas!!
3) Make very important phone call to friend from high school – I have no idea what my problem is here. I haven’t talked to her in over two years and I’m ecstatic to finally be back in touch, yet I can’t seem to find the time to make the call.
I might be able to shake these things off and cut myself some slack if I could just tell you what exactly I HAVE been doing for the past month. But the thing is I have NO IDEA!
I have always been the queen of procrastination, this is nothing new, but wouldn’t you think I’d learn? After 28 years of this wouldn’t you think I’d realize that procrastinating always leads to me feeling very overwhelmed and stressed out? In all this time wouldn’t you think I’d realize that I don’t particularly like feeling overwhelmed and stressed out?
Obviously the answer is No. Because I can’t exactly tell you what I have been doing for the past two days, but I can tell you it wasn’t any of the items listed above.